blah blah blah

I'm back..
because too bored...

Remember i mention that i hate Mondays..
but..
Saturdays are even worst...
I'm too freeee!!!!

My weekdays are devoted to my dear boss..
what about weekend?

Saturday morning will be abit busy.. send mickey to saloon; sometimes send bro to school or tuitions; then i'm free!! Will play Restaurant City in facebook in the whole afternoon.. That's really really boring...

Sometimes i even thought of back to office to complete my work... sounds crazy right?

What to do.. no one date me... if really hang out sure spend alot which my salary does not allow me to.. In the end.. stay at home and date with my computer.. how pathetic it is.. =.="


Now i'm thinking of get a part time job for my saturdays so to keep myself busy.... Yes or no?

And i love Sundays ^____^

Oh ya, left not much time for my dance exam and competition but we still lengang-lengang.. Lol.. We now only wanna start to have the novice step, not even at the brush up stage... =.=
This round is just for experience though.. still new for us from begineer to novice... quite a big gap... so.. not hoping much.. just dance and have fun. :)

Until here then... gtg now.. bye readers..

It's august!

It's august already.. Day by day, week by week... time really flies... And finally the peak is over, all the December year end company can say finished.. But mine still left one, which the client also aware of the penalty for being late in submission, but they seems dunno how to do account.. I'm still waiting for the revised management account.. sweat.. and the client's at KL, which more difficult for me to get more info or doc from them... okok.. that's first case....

Even though i say PEAK IS OVER... There's always a HOWEVER, currently i'm handling a June year end big file, June seems fine since there's 6 month for submission, BUT BUT BUT, this file is different, the parent company is listed!!!! And the consequences is, it should be lodged in AUGUST!!! Argh......

I wonder when can i go back sharp at 5.45pm... :(


And and and... I hate mondays... It's the day where you get heart attack by the job allocation, it's a very hectic day whereby you find that you have not enough time, you found that last week job still haven't complete and now you got another one.... And everything start over again....

i am sad

sad and guilty...
the time i'm free, i'm sleepy...
when you're free, i'm working...
day by day...
we both also used to the absenteeism of each other...
we have nothing to talk anymore...

i dunno what else what happen in long term...

I miss you..

Mickey, sorry for being not able coming back in the evening to bring you out for a walk... sorry for living you alone in the house everyday with all windows and door closed for 12 hours...
Dear, sorry for spending less and less time talking or text you... I tried to finish the work as much as i could and it slowly taken up all my time and even my life..... When the time after i reached home and settle down, i already very tired and every time fall asleep after text you not more than 10 messages... i'm so sorry....

The responsibility is so strong... i can procrastinate my own things but not others.... I break my record this week for working overtime until 11pm... i guess next week, the week after...etc... i wun be able to get back to home before 7pm... i'm slowly getting fat because of eating late every night and straight away sleep...

My back and neck pain each day... and i totally no time to practice stretching for the split which have to be done in September... my life now is so full of work..... feel like giving up.... i want my life back....

Mickey Lee vs Skids Mudflap

Still remember him?

He was so skinny and pity that time...

Living behind the bar... waiting for us to let him out... rain or shine will still stay outside of the house... waiting and waiting....

And now.. He is staying with us.. inside the house... :)

His blanket.. :) Sleep so peacefully...

Sitting inside the car after grooming...

And he made his :P face... haha...

Here he is... Mr. Mickey Lee.. :D

Dear also got himself two puppies... Hehe.. Skids and Mudflap :)Yay!.. I'm the winner.. lol..

Updates

busy busy busy.. I dunno what i busy for... i just know I AM BUSY...

And i'm living a robot life.. Everything doing the same thing... is just that i can feel tired.. :(

Okay... dun want complain anymore... Just list out something that happened to me recently:

1. I was assigned to finalise a file, lucky it is just a dormant company, and the report has sent out yesterday finally. I guess next week will have few more to come. Wish me luck.

2. From 4th of May, all staff are compulsory to do 3 hours overtime from 5.45pm - 8.45pm. My life even short now. :(

3. Got my first ever salary. And the problem is they debit less money to my account. Same thing happened to my colleague that came in same day with me. Ofcoz we din keep quiet, after count and recount, our salary should be 50 bucks more than what they had debited into our account after deducting the EPF and SOCSO.

The good thing is, on that day itself they give us the cash after the investigation. :)

4. EPF, i got question here, normally who is the one who open the account? The employer or employee? I was told that i must open it myself and give them my EPF number. But the thing is from where i able to get extra time to do it nowadays?? Shit happens...

5. Heard that the boss is very stingy. Even the mileage claim he also wanna bargain with one of the senior. Saying the the few ringgit and cents no need to claim la.. bla... shit...

And i drove to Juru and Bukit Mertajam for the pass few weeks. Hope i able to claim them back. :(

6. I got 1st runner up for Rumba, 2nd runner up for both Cha Cha and Jive in beginner category against >60 couples. :D. Unexpected. Was aiming for Cha Cha and Jive. But the results always opposite. Hehe.. Too bad din bring any camera, no pic or video to share.. Just wait and see my dance fren got take any la.

7. Kishern came to Penang last Sunday. Hehe.. A surprise visit while he and his family came back from Langkawi trip. Gosh.. I meet his family and his aunt family.. 11 of them altogether came here just to witness me! So blushing... LOL..

And, i'm using postpaid now. :D free calls, free sms, free mms between us. :D :D :D Wish i had more time to spend with him.

8. Due to long hours working, my eyes need more rest, cant weart contact lenses more than 10 hours a day, and I spent half of my salary to a spec today. Expensive expensive. But for the health sake, have to. The frame is from Japan, very light one; the lenses are sensative to heat, will change to shade when i'm under the hot sun. Good right.. Please say yes..

9. And lastly, i din forget the treat for my gang after getting my first salary. But by looking at the limited time i have until end of July, and i kinda lost contact with you guys, no updates from you all in the blogger also... So... dunno when we can meet up?

My first time

For those who wondering what my first time is... Well, stop thinking other things... What i mean is...








my first time of outside audit.. :P



First time follow senior outside, 3 ladies went to Batu Maung there for 3 days... I quite like to work outside from office... I guess i can adopt the new environment easily... And get used to it and get bored very soon too.. And this job suite me.. Coz i can visit different places and work at different places each week.. :)

But traveling takes time.. lucky i'm not the one driving.. hehehe...

And next week we going out again! :D And heard that this is big company... Got two big CAF (Current Audit File) and two big PAF (Permanent Audit File) to carry... Heavy heavy... And this round 4 people going together... Dunno for how many days... Busy Busy... Need more rest...




And lastly... since i start working, i dun have much idle time where i can sit down and do nothing... Here's my everyday routine:
6am:
Wake up, brush my teeth, prepare Mickey's food, bathe, choose my clothes, blow dry my hair, feed Mickey, wash the dishes, prepare and eat my breakfast, toilet, make up (if still got time left!), and say goodbye to Mickey..

7.55am:
Start my journey to office.. Reach around 8.20am or later depends on the traffic at Greenlane.

8.45am till 5.45pm:
Obviously at work!

6pm:
Going back from office (currently at this time), sometimes wait mum at Grandpa house, sometimes straight away go back home.

If wait for mum,
7.40pm only reach home, bring Mickey out for walk.
8.00pm, prepare Mickey's food, bathe, feed Mickey.
8.30pm till 9.30pm, have my dinner while watching tv, and the only time i can rest and do nothing..

After that, i'm getting tired... Energy level below 5%... zzz.... :||

Not that small

It's not that small as i expected, i thought the firm only has one floor with 10+ workers, but i'm wrong! They have 3 unit all together! - Audit, secretarial, and consultancy. Workers over 50+. Not so small right... And the clients mostly are subsidiary of the listed company.

The colleagues there all very nice, young.. :D Most of them worked there not long ago, (high turnover) some are trainees but can handle few files already, and the seniors are young too, well experienced and willing to teach...

I made a new friend at the first day itself, both of us are new.. hehe.. And this round i not so shy and take the first move to ask for her name while waiting in the meeting room.. (unlike last time in college, i so quiet only, never talk until people ask me.. :p) Hehe.. I'm changing.. so proud for myself... taking the first move isn't that hard... kekeke...

As there's not enough space for both of us, we are allocated to sit in the assistant manager's room! Christine is her name. But she's nice too.. Again, look young and sweet.. Hehe.. Never show off her status, talk politely, smile at us.... :) So lucky and happy to work in this environment.. so far..

The funny part at the first day is the introduction of ourselves.. We went around to meet the staffs, exchange name... Gosh.. Why my name so hard to pronounce and memorize? And i cant use Joanne, got someone there name Joanne already.. Aiyo...

My new friend were wearing long pants at the first day, therefore was chosen to go for stock take.. And i still dunno belongs to which senior.. lol.. Was given a task to bring all the closing balances from last year this year opening balance.. Sounds easy right? I also think that's easy.. BUT BUT BUT.. there's always a BUT! First time seeing a list of Trial Balance, the real Trial Balance... And the font size is like 8 only... And they have 4 to 5 pages of them... O.o

Not just that, I have to key in the auditors' adjustments for last year to get the final figure that showed in the audited financial statements, which is sure correct one.. So, i die die must get that figure right...

Another but, they using dunno what Lotus 123 software, something like MsExcel... The icon and functions all so NOT THE SAME......... It really take times for me to figure it out how to amend the cell..... Ofcoz not i have to start from a clean sheet, but copy from last year file and erase all the figure and key in the current figure... BUT, the format copied for the Balance Sheet is so shit, it's not present according to the accounting standard..... =.= I have to cut and paste here and there, very the mafan.......... And that's my first day... Whole day fixing that sounds-easy-opening-balances.... AND YET GOT 3 ITEMS I STILL CANT GET THE FIGURE RIGHT... :(

I really gave up finding the error i done, and hand in to Christine for help.. The next day she ask one of the senior to help me.. Hehe... And finally it's settled... Phew.... If not, i really cant sleep properly wei... Every night before sleep, my soul will still around the office, thinking of all the documents, the colleagues....... MENTALLY ABUSED...

And i also learnt how to use the photocopy machine and fax machine.. LOL...

Tomorrow is the day

My routine going to change tomorrow after a long rest since December 2008.

• No more wake up at 8 or 9, but 6 in the morning...
• No more spending more time with Mickey in the morning...
• No more spending time with my cute cousins...
• No more pet society...
• Blogging? Hmm.. will try to if i can, but hardly since no connection in my house :(

But the good is..

• I able to learn new things
• get away from this house that full of cold blood creature, especially the Bee that release the toxic smoke
• make new friends and face some challenge i suppose
• live a life for myself
  
• and getting busy
  

And i wish...

• Everyone i going meet are nice to me, no back stab at least..
• If the person i going to face is a creature again, please let me have a wise mind and dun spoil my mood for such a creature, it's not worth it, let me treat them as a joker which lost their mind..
• Let me have a smooth journey, lead me to the light, and allow me face the challenges if it's meant for me to learn something from it..
• And last but not least, lead me to happiness and getting happier each day. Dun let me sink into sorrows for a long time, guide me to the right way...

Amen..

How do you react to compliments?

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test98.aspx

Here is my result:

If you try to change the subject when you are being complimented or you simply ignore it, this means that you don't like to pretend and you cherish authenticity. You feel that saying nice things to someone is merely an attempt to please the listener. (Extremely true!) You don't believe there is truth in compliments, and think that the complimenter must want something in return. (YESH!) You have good self-esteem and aren't afraid of criticizing, or being criticized. (Yeah, i rather people come up to me and criticize or tell me where i did wrong than saying nice things for some reason... In me heart i will think: come on, straight to the point, dun waste my time, just say what you want from me.. )

The Clothes You Wear

What others see from your style

You probably live in your own little world and studiously avoid having to search for your own identity. You may feel that you are not loved, and being in your imaginary world is your way of coping with this. You get moody easily. (Hmmm.. moody... sometimes... when things aren't right or within my expectation..)

What your nightclothes reveal

You're in need of love. You want to be taken care of and panic easily. You have a strong wish for security in your life. (I get panic easily, that's true.. Always afraid of this and that.. worry here and there...)

What others see from your ties

You enjoy being alone. You like to life the simple but good life, and you cherish your freedom. You are thoughtful, confident and uninterested in glamour. (Yes, simple but good life.. That's exactly what i looking for.. will work hard on it..)

What others see from your belts

You are a kind of person who likes to hide your feelings. (True! But i wun hide it if i feel like showing faces.. that will happen when it hits my limit!) You may have a hot temper but tend to cover it with an outwardly calm and gentle demeanor. (Yup, will smile but inside feel like killing!) You are sensitive when it comes to love. (maybe yeah..)

What others see from your shoes

You are kind and open-minded. You may not be talkative, but you are friendly and enjoy the company of intelligent people. You always keep the secrets of others, and never play tricks on people. (Yup, i can keep secret very well.. zipped.. i dun like to talk about other people business.. feel bad to tricks on people either, it hurts people feelings..)

What others see from your earrings

You are probably a free spirit at heart with artistic talent. You are absolutely unique and are always coming up with lots of great ideas. Being happy is your most important goal. (Quite agree with the last sentence, Happiness is the most important thing in life, i wun waste time on things that wun make me happy.. )

The last analysis

You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. (Socializing.. hmm.. depends on who the person is.. i dislike entertaining.. giving fake smile.. all fake!) Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts. (I do enjoy spending time alone with my thoughts.. Take my sweet time to think at night before i sleep.. or maybe sometimes i'll just sit down and stare at something for a long time.. lol..)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test102.aspx

Life goes on

Been slowing down my blogging, i also dunno what i am busy on for the past few days.. Basically helping out my 4th aunt - teach her how to use computer.

And also last week my cousins are away to KL and Johor, so nothing much.

Oh yea, I ate 3 times of fast food in a week! very the bad... Double Cheese burger, royal masala pizza, seafood supreme, Pepsi, secret recipe's black pepper chicken, Chicken Cornish... all fattening and unhealthy.. Need to take extra colon cleanser to poo poo more..

Yesterday training was fun, but i dun have enough stamina, danced from 12.45pm till 6pm. But my mind is shut at 4pm. Cant really absorb the amended steps and counting to reach the stage i wanted to do, kinda blur and unfocused.. :(


And today i have good news to share.. :)

I am recruited! :D
No more rotting at home.. Hehehe... Will start on April fool day.

:)
:)
:)

Such a mean person that i ever meet

I know this man, or should i say Uncle through the youtube. He send me a msg after saw my dance video. He's from Ipoh. Then he talk about his daughter also enter the dancing competition in ladies event all.. To cut the long story short. Recently her daughter got Champion in the Genting's Competition last Feb. And he is so proud to show off his daughter to me saying how good she is, and how good the contestant from his studio is..

Here's his msg:

Hi Joanne

Good news . My daughter won the champion for the ladies event this time.

My studio also won the Novice and Pre-Amatuer champion.
Other result are 3rd in the Under 16, Begineer Under 16 and so on. Ha ! Can't remember all the result.

Importantly my daughter got the champion this time..YEEPPYYY YEAH...

It sounds normal right, a father feeling proud for his daughter..

But then, recently.. He asking me whether i'm joining the coming May competition, say maybe he can come and say hi to me... Then i told him yea, will enter...

And you guys guess what he replied??

Oh Latest news..

My whole family maybe won't be going. Bcos my daughter partner(ladies) already got a male partner and are practicing hard everyday for the begineer event.

Another News.... The team from JJ and ALICE Dance Studio (IPOH) has a lot more couples than previous year. And are practicing everyday for 2 hours. The name ALICE is the adjusticator (judge) for latin events and her sifu is WILLIAM also an adjusticator there. Now his studio is in KL. There are also sending a lot more couple there BCOS they are the judge there for the latin event.

My sifu name Yen Ching is also a adjusticator for the latin event...THERE

SO YOU ARE THERE TO LOSE FOR SURE........????? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK LAH.... MAYBE 6TH PLACE JUST TO GIVE U FACE...
WHY WASTE TIME AND MONEY THERE...... IT IS OUR TERRITORY OUR WORLD.....
PENANG IS OUR HAHA haha... haha...... hahah .......

I and my daughter won't be joining.... See how u lose..... FOR SURE.

His word really hurt me.. why got such person in this world?

Desperate job seeker

Times really bad
You dun have a say now
Important is getting the job and stop idle at home

Nowadays keep on searching for job online
Most of it are from KL or Selangor
Sadly none suite me

Saw one or two available at Penang
It's like getting water from the desert
Hurriedly i emailed to them
And getting a call from them is a miracle

Wish me luck for next Tuesday
I just want the job and fulfill the practical experience
Even it's as low as thousand five, i dun have a say
Just give me the job and I willing to be the slave.

Any ideas? URGENT

First time in my life
I receive a wedding invitation card yesterday from my dance center friend..

Normally parents are the one who receive it, and we just go and makan..

And now i got the card.. aiyo... going alone... and the headache part is what to give? help... Need to get ready before this Saturday.....

and.. i'm still...






UNEMPLOYED


:(

Busy Week

Been a week from my last post.. How are you all? Miss me? :P

Lots of things happened this week...


Looking for jobs
Been busy preparing my resume, edit here and there, upload it to certain websites, printing again and again because found some spelling mistake.. Argh.. >.<


Clear Holder needed
Went to Popular to get this so that i could file all my certs nicely..


Traveling
Don't forget that i need to send my bro to tuition, take him for lunch and send him back to school; evening, drive to Air Itam to pick my mum... Reach home, take Mickey out for walk, wash his legs after walk, prepare his food, brush his hair...etc.. Sounds easy, but all take times...


Credit Card Cancellation
If can, try dun simply sign up any credit card from any banks... It's easy to get a card in hand, but when you dun want it, they will find ways to make you continue using it... And too many cards in hand is very troublesome, it doesn't show you are rich, but using 'short term loan' from bank.
Well, of coz i dun have any credit card on hand... But was helping my mum and aunt to cancel it since last December! Finally solve the problem this week... Such a long time.. duh..


First interview
Thursday went for interview, actually i dun really know what a TRADING AGENT is, but saw the salary is quite good, RM2000, and is situated at Tanjung Tokong, near my place, so just give it a try....

It was just a simple 'talk' i can say, not that very formal interview as i expected, and is spoken in mandarin some more, even the quiz is in chinese! lol.. And.. He dun even want to see my certs..

Basically, that position need to source for your own customers (just like an insurance agent), and they will train you to trade forex online, the salary is base on the commission you manage to earn from the gain of trading.. In short, no customer, no gain, no salary.. After discussing with Ms Choong, she said this not really can fulfil my ACCA practical requirements, and therefore i think i just reject that position..

Keep on finding... :(


Photocopy, A4 size envelop
Well, since my online application for Deloitte and EY still got no news from them... I found another medium firm situation at Gurney Tower.. So i got to prepare all my ACCA results photocopied, an envelop and hand in to them personally.. And now all i can do is to wait and cross my fingers...


Later at noon...
I will going out with Jac for shopping~ Hehe.. wanna get a gift for Ah Q, her birthday is on this 8th.. Happy Birthday QQ.. :D Will pass the present to you when we meet yea... keke..


Tomorrow...
Wanna start training hard for my dance... Been mushrooming for long time!!! So rusty rusty rusty rusty! Fat FAT FAT!!!

Insurance?

Insurance exam?
Yes, i took this test in this afternoon.

Some of you may ask why... you know who you are.. haha... :P

Kk.. why i suddenly taking this insurance exam? Am i going to be an insurance agent?

The answer is..


YES!




WHY???

Well.. for fun...





LOL... Of coz not!!



I taking this exam just to help out my father, FYI, my dad is insurance agent for the motor insurance, and motorcycle instructor, running small driving school together with my 2nd uncle..

So?

How does this got to do with me as insurance agent?


Well, recently the claim rate is higher than the rate we manage to insured, and the insurer company think of taking back my father license, so.. what to do... i have to take the test in order for my dad to continue the business under my name... That's why...


And.. I just got the textbook last week!!

"The Pre Contract Examination For Insurance Agents"
25 chapters, 271 pages... =.=

And this Thursday i only found out it's objective (which is very good news!, no need to memorize, unlike ACCA), and have 3 parts (Part A, B, C, each part 50 ques!).

The exam format is either you take Part A+B or Part A+C, or Part B only or Part C only...

HUH???


Which one they sign me up for???


I was so blur, just take the book and start reading, the very slow type, and until Thursday i still haven't reach half of the book!


And sometimes slow is good, why i say so?

Coz, they sign me up for the Part A+B, and this book have all the Part A, B, and C. Which means... I no need to finish the whole book!! HOORAY!!! :D :D :D Hahahahahahaha....

And, i planned my reading time JIT... :p This morning still have 25 pages to read... and then took lunch at KFC with mum and bro, then dad sent me to Chung Hwa High School for the test...

My feeling is like... NORMAL... So NORMAL until didn't feel any pressure as taking ACCA exam.. And it's objectives.. Come on... If dunno still can tembak! :p

I just so daring, only read through once, and some just scan only, din read word by word also... Am i taking it too easy?

2.30pm is the exam time, 2 hours, 100 questions..

2.15pm,
the invigilator pass down the answer script (just like the CRS, where you have to shade your particulars in the bubbles, this feeling bring me back to the ACCA exam, but my heartbeat still stable, under controlled, unlike last time, beating so fast that i have to take alot of deep breathe), following the instructions of what he told us to do, and then 2.30pm we start answering..

Some i know, some i not sure, some i think it's this answer, some i just simply tembak!

3.30pm,
some people leave the hall already, i still have around 15 questions...

3.40pm,
i finished answering the 100th questions! :D

I think i wanna leave too!

Hehe.. objectives questions i very pantang to read over the questions and redo again, coz i will have conflict to myself later on, and will scratch my head whether to change the answer... And most of the time i changed, i got it wrong! (kena these during the secondary school all the time, especially sejarah!) So, base on my first instinct is the best answer! :D

I keep all the things, and the invigilator come and collect my answer, i asked him what's the passing mark?

He answered 40, if not hard to pass..

40?? 40??? less than half wei.. and objectives some more....

Happily i leave the classroom and wait my dad to pick me up...

The results will be post out in 10 working days.. :) Wish me luck!

Who's this?

Haha.. Uncle isaac :-D

Long time no see

It has been 4 days i din come to this house, normally when Nicholas see me driving here, he sure stand at the door there and welcome me..

But today, he din, he just ran to the bean bag and lie there, looked shy and his face no smile.. Is he feel strange about me?

After i put down my things, i go to him, call his name, try to play peekaboo with him.. But he din smile at all.. but can see his lips tilt abit feel like smiling but din show all...

After that i pull him out fromt the bean bag, and carry him...

And to my surprise, he just like lembik only, put all his weigh on me, and lean his head on my shoulder for very long time.... just like this...


I walk him around to his mum and grandma, but he still the same pose, not leaving his head off my shoulder.. Aww.... They all calling his name he also no reaction.... He missed me.. :')

I sit down and took around 12+ pics, he just sit quitely in my arms and never move a bit... Aww... normally he wun sit long for 5 secs one you know...

Look at these pics... Can see his serious face when not smiling.. hehe..

Grooming

Another back date post..

Feb 18th

Took Mickey for grooming at Air Itam, after knowing more about how to take care of him, i feel so sad and guilty for not taking care him properly for the pass few months.. This type of dog should be stay at home not outside the house, and the worst is when rains, he dunno how to hide under the shade, but standing at the door hoping to wait us come back.. see how royal he is...


Anyhow, after that day, i decided to keep him at my house, not leaving him outside de.. Poor mickey...


See the difference before and after of grooming.. :)

Before

After


Handsome, look here ;)

Here you are.. but sad face.. :(

See how he sleep, was thinking put a pillow for him.. haha..

Tissue all over!

Aiks.. this is a back date post.. long time din online...





That night hang out with my gang and came home late, and was so careless that i forget to take a packet of tissue paper out from my shorts' pocket and straight away throw it into the washing machine... :(



Then the next day... snow everywhere in the washing machine... =.=


And this is 'collection' after flip and swing the shirts... Still got some still stick on the clothes...




All my family clothes kena the tissue paper... very the troublesome to take them off... so careless me... haih.. No next time pls!

Change is needed

Oh, so tired.. Just back from McD with the kids...



After last night chatting with Ah Q and Jac, i realise that among this gang, i'm the only one still taking money from parents... what a shame... I'm going to change this... instead of taking, i will be giving..



The second thing i wanna to change will be, live the day as if there's no tomorrow.. I've been relaxing at home for the past two months... Maybe i did learn something, something that you cant learn from the book - how to be a good mother. I've the experience of taking care of my 8 year younger bro when i was only 8, and now another 3 cousins.. I really had enough for that.. I'm really tired for the kids... Everyday do the same thing for 2 months! It's fun at first, but now it's tiring.. I dun have that energy and patience for children while i could have done something else more meaningful. However, i'm glad that i'm not wasting time (maybe just to make myself feel better), i still learn something, right?



I want to learn from Ah Q, first thing in the morning, PLAN. Plan what i going to spend my day so that i wun regret for wasting time.. Then at night before sleep, i shall ask myself what i've done and which one i did well, which one need to be improved... By doing this, i can track down my daily life and know what i've done in my life...

For the moment, these are the two things i have to change
1) stop asking, but giving
2) fully use my 24 hours
and then find out what else i need to improve.. so my life will be more meaningful.. :)

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

I pass
I pass
I pass
I pass!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK GOD, THANK ALL THE LECTURER!!!

Finally... i finish it last night :D

470 pages
33 days
average 45 mins per day
hmm...

Spasibo!

Listen

This song was recorded during the time when I sudden disappear from him..

This is how we begin...

***

All it started from friendster, piano to be exactly...
He found me first because of the 'piano' word in the Interest section, i suppose.. :)

I remember that time i was having some hard time with my grade 8 and at the same time doing my CAT advance level... His present is like the angel from heaven, he thought me alot about music, introduce me to the another world of language.... Music itself speak the words that it doesn't need any lyrics.. Just like this song...

We didn't expect we will be stay in touch for long, as i thought after giving me some tips of how to play... and that's it... end of story....

But no... Surprisingly we found out we have alot of similarities, and here we start to text each other day and night... It becomes like a habit? Or should i say feel something missing if we dun text...

***

That's one day, alot of reasons that accumulated... conflict in me and family.. due to our distance, race difference, afraid of nonacceptance from family, friends, languages...... There's this day, we got quarrel... I cant really remember what's it about... but it really hurts, feel unsecured..... And i was really really sad..... and the sad turns to anger....... and i make a silly decision...... i changed my number..... hope to start all over again..... back to the life when i no need phone with me all the time..... back to the life that i once were......

I was wrong.... It's so hard than i expected..... I thought after few days i will feel better..... but it's worst that i can imagine...... Looking at the phone that i know there will be no message coming in and still hope it will..... and at the same time i have to stay strong because that was my decision.... and parents were happy about it......... Each night sleep with tears.... Alot of memories keep on floating into my mind whenever i close my eyes......

He never give up..... he still email me.... tell me to practice my piano as my exam were near that time...... but i didn't reply any of them....... I feel so struggle..... hate myself..... but i cant show the weak side of me......

That one to two weeks was like years...... days seem hard to pass..... the feeling of waiting....is just... like dying..... i cant play... whenever i sat on piano, it reminds me of him..... everywhere i went, there will be something connected to him......

***

I gave up in the end...... I decided to give a miss called..... a chance.... for him... and for myself.... And.. :') ....



Just like this song.... He recorded it during that hard time.... It's a perfect piece.... the way he brings out the feeling of the whole song.... Each note hammer deeply straight into my heart.....

Frédéric Chopin - Nocturne in A flat major, opus 32 no.2

Listen it... the happiness at the beginning..... full of anticipation.... the joy we had together.... :')
and comes to the middle.... the struggling part.... heart tearing..... questioning why this happen.... should i go back... or should i look forward.....

And slowly it back to the joy... :')

Dun pretend kind, i know you dun have the heart!
Dun say I'm rude when you yourself speak those vulgar words more than me!
People like you like to show off but deep inside you know nothing!
And still wanna say more and keep on repeat the same sentence!
Dun ask for my opinion whether things that you wear are nice or not, to me they are all for man!

Dun think you are always right and aspect that others must follow your instructions!
Your yellow eyes, stinky mouth with cigarette smell make me feel so sick!
If one day any of us get the lung cancer, we all will appreciate it!
You selfish creature!

All things happen because of you i realized,
all the sisters would live in peace without you in this world,
we dun have you look at your face and act accordingly,
but i'm not afraid of you!

Our friend can't visit us on certain days all because of you,
all you have is the dirty money and you use it as your power..

Poor thing that afraid of living alone, why?
Because you done so much 'good' thing to us,
none of us wanna stay with you till the end.

You be good to us when you need us,
each time you will use your money,
buy something for us, and in return,
you want something back..

Mum will feel uneasy if she dun help,
because you've 'help' her, using your power..

Dad is ours, not your slave..
Dun ask him buy this or that for you while you sitting at home like a statue!
And in return, you round up the figure for the things you ask him to buy..

You have legs and hands, and your honda civic,
you tired? you afraid of traffic jam?
what about us? My dad not tired traveling under the hot sun??

It's ok, we can help.. But please be reasonable..
When we buy for you, you have the say of which place of food you want, and we must get it for you even it's far...
When you buy for us, we din ask that much, just buy whatever you can as long as it can be eat..

You bought cream puffs, and say it's very nice,
but i dun think it is, in the end, too much..
You gave it to Mickey, and i've told you not to give anything for him before, he's not the normal dog that eat anything, but you gave, and feel so proud...
And he diarrhea the next morning!

And you still can say: "It's NORMAL for dog to have diarrhea, just like us human, sometimes also get diarrhea.. This only consider NORMAL.."

God.. I really lost my temper to such person.. I will cry over a dead animal but not this person. I swear! There are none good memory in my mind with this creature.. It's not that i din forgive, i try very hard each time, but it doesn't last for long...

Yours, Mine, & Ours

Watched this movie last night with my bro on RTM2, i personally quite enjoy and like this movie.

Imagine, a widow with 8 kids married a widower with 10 kids! BOOM.. 18 kids in a house!
I'm currently helping babysit my 3 cousins already can feel the mess and stress! what about 18? i surrender...

It's quite fun to watch it, it's a family movie, nothing suspense, but humour and romance..

Honestly, i dun like kids.. erm.. not dun like them, yes, i like when they are cute and adorable... It's fun when comes to play with them for few hours, but come to raise them, teach them the right thing, solve their problem, paying attention to what their needs, discover why they behave in certain way, understand why and what they crying for.... All these need alot of energy and attention. You cant just leave them on the floor and enjoy your fav show, or online, or go shopping, hang out with friends, or cooking, or do the housework.... You wun know what will happen next when they are alone, they will just snatch anything, climb up the stairs, stuffing unknown things into their mouth wherever they can reach..... lots more...

Not just that, you have to clean up the 'great work' they've done - the mess.. Tidy up the toys, change the diapers, make milk, feed them, bathe them, put them to sleep.... you think you job finish when they sleep? no.. dun forget to wash the dishes, the clothings, the toilet, mop the floor, water your garden, wash your car, iron your clothes.. sometime the worst is the kids wake up in the middle of night!

Life is so horrible with kids...

A woman's beauty will start to fade when the time she get pregnant.
First the body... Then the slow-mentally-torture by the kids... Your body starts to out of shape (why? when the kids dun want eat, you will eat theirs because you afraid of wasting), you have no time to tidy up yourself (no skirt, no nice dress and high heels, coz how you going to chase your kids when you waering those?), you got no time to go saloon (it takes hours, you cant leave your children at home), your skin full of flaw (no time to make up or doing mask?), all the attention are on the kids....

What happen to the husband?

They only know how to earn money(hopefully) and create more mess! What's the mess? The first thing, their SMELLY socks! you need to find and match their socks... Dun laugh, it really happens in this world.. And they wun do the housework, he will say this is your job, you're housewife, and he's tired from work... Some even worst and ask: is this the woman i married years ago? what the...

Can love conquer all these?


Yes from the guy? No?

Will the guy realise their promises when the time come?

Which version you using?

Do you chat using msn? or window messenger? or window live messenger?

Are you using the latest version one?

Windows Live Messenger 2009

What's so interesting about it?

Well, besides those chatting, video calling..etc, the new feature in this version is - you can record a short 4 secs video of yourself and display it on your display picture! Isn't it cool? Now your fren can see you moving instead of a static picture of you! I love it!

Besides, you can create different short video of you in different emotion. For example, when you put a smiley face like this :), or this :D, or this :P, the video will change to the one you design to each of them accordingly.. Interesting?

Get it now and be the first one using it in your friend list :D

Download MSN Messenger from FileHippo.com

I'm currently using it, so far only two of my fren can see me waving to them.. hehe.. the rest of them still using the older version.. so what you are waiting for? it's fun! :D

Family photo 2009

From top left: Sis, bro, me, mum and dad

I'm the youngest one in this family as you can see i'm the shortest among them.
why i so short? :(

I want...

Keep fit!!
God.. my tummy like pregnant woman... :(
All thanks to CNY and no dancing for three weeks!!
Exercise less but eating habit still the same.. That's very horrible thing that can happen in just few days...
I cant continue like this... I have to stop eating the meat... I have to be a vegatarian... Been too kind to myself already.. shouldn't eat those...

I took a few sip of frizzy drinks each time my bro open one can.. :( I shouldn't take it...
I promise myself not to take 'bak gua', but i took about two slices.. :(... lucky it already finished by the kids...

Now i only hope next week i can live like normal, coz i've been taking alot of 'cooling' drinks (to avoid too heaty) and frizzy drink especially, and tomyam soup.. :(

Hope there will be no pain next week... I really regret for what i've taken.. God, please forgive me... Take the pain away...

Fireworks

The fireworks captured by me.. not bad eh.. :P.. but behind blur la.. =.=

See how excited he is.. haha..

I think he is the one enjoy the most that night.. Happy Nicholas.. :D Cheese!!
Big children playing firecrackers... lol..

And never forget self portrait.. :D

We had our dinner at aunty 3 house.. Love her cooking.. Hope next time she can cook more often and invite us to eat.. :P...
After dinner, we played the firecrackers at the back of her house.. :) The kids first time play this kind of thing, all very happy and excited.. Except the princess, she fall asleep on the way to aunt house, and keep sleeping at the sofa even though we talked so loud and the tv was on also.. Hehe.. very tired she...

That's all for CNY.. On Monday everything will back to normal..

2 more weeks.. the results will out.. scary.. :S

Reunion with primary 6 frens

Steamboat BBQ buffet.. very the oily and smoky... haha.. have to wash from head to toes after came back home...

Anyhow this gathering brings back alot of memories when we small.. lol..

The fren in green shirt lost his prefect position for hitting the same fren in white shirt twice! haha.. why??

Coz this white shirt fren last time was the troublemaker in our class, most of us dun like him.. lol.. this can be proved by looking at our autograph in primary school... He's so famous in our school.. Everyone knows his name!

Each time someone mention his name, everyone sure never forget to stay away from him as far as we can... lol...

Years pass, now he's a teacher.. yep.. a computer tutor.. No one can believe it.. haha.. But after last night reunion, i notice he had changed... Hehe.. Not so bad compare to last time... i can say totally a diff person already.. ;)


People do change when time goes by.

House visiting

dunno why i covered my neck.. XD

Like last year, we went to visit our gang house by house, eat and eat, drink and drink..

This year only have 5 of us, coz JJ have to start her work back in KL... (which is a good news for some of us.. :p.. haha... shh....)

This year we went to mainland first then back to the island...

Something funny about this year is we all kena the 'virus' from Queenie's 'huat ah!!' spirit... Lol... see everyone or receive any calls also start with HUAT AH.... :D really had fun...

Later in the evening we went to Kek Lok Si temple, nothing much there except the crowd, the jam, and the lights... Hehe.. maybe i used to view it since when i small ( i grew up there).. Waiting for the two gentleman taking their professional photos.. lol.. while me and mei phing standing there most of the time like a statue.. :p

Lastly, wanna thanks to all of you for the tasty food and drinks offered during the visiting, and also thanks for Leng Hin sending me back even though he lives at Paya Terubong.. :)

I wish i wsh....

If they were dark green...

or red...

or light green....

LOL...

Too boring!

Looking for owner

I'm looking for owner for this cute tiny mouse, it's about 6cm long, and it never grow bigger than that. As you know, mouse only active at night, day time it will roll itself like a softball and sleep.. So my friend out there, especially those who like to stay up at night, you can get yourself a company.. Teehee.. interesting? no?

Reason of give away: I already have mickey (dog), 4 turtles, an aquarium of goldfish, therefore dun have time to take care it.

Price: FREE~

Those who interested please contact me.. :)

What do you think?

I want this.. :D

Still waiting for the seller to confirm.. argh.. why so slow...


By the way, the two Lace Spaghetti had arrived this morning! Yeehaaa! :D
Love it! The material is as what i expected.. happy happy! :D


But then, i having sorethroat... :(
Hardly have voice.. must speak in very deep and soft tone.. terrible... why the weather so HOT HOT HOT!!!

woohoo.. shopping shopping...

Since last November, i started browsing through the online boutique, at first i told myself just to see look... and then i found the skirt i wanted for my dance practice, they are hard to find and cheaper than i bought offline..

Recently, i bought another two dress for the new year.. :D
And another brown skirt for dance dance.. hehe..

And two more coming soon... hope they reach safely by tomorrow...

And this one will only get it next week.. wooohoo... :D

Very hard to get this.. :P

My cousins :)

The eldest son - Isaac

The princess - Isabel, I tied the hair for her o.. ;)




And the little ones - Nicholas, so cute they all.. Eyes big big.. bigger than mine.. XD