Saturday, December 6, 2008

Stuck in the middle

This whole week my emotion is like roller coaster, hate myself for not prepared well, i could do it, but i failed... All due to lack of discipline and bad time management...

The question ain't that difficult if well prepared honestly.. Although a bit tricky here and there.. If with calm and rational mind, it can be done.. I'm dumb..

I cant control my tears each time i think of it... until my bro asked me why my eyes so puffy when we ate dinner last night.. I just said the chili is too hot.. really sad...

Now left one more paper to go, P3, a resit paper..

I'm lost agian, dunno where to start, no mood to study... I'm stuck... Wonder what am i good in, all average compare to others..

3 comments:

  1. sis, i know how u feels as i'm in the same situation with u too... i nearly give up for going for this exam and it's helpless... not prepare and tonnes of things keep on popping into my mind... i sleep more than i study.. because of this unprepare exam i hated myself so much until i really give up already...

    it's easy to say but hard to do it but sis, i'm sure u don't want to see this college anymore right? no books n exam anymore after this... u're going for yr new life so gotta cheer up n go for it.

    take care!

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  2. Yea, i'm trying.. But alot things happen lately... since enter into December, i can say sorrow follow me eveywhere..

    Tomorrow test, and today i only wanna study it.. Past few days after P4, i dun really feel like study at all, everything i read is blur and cant absorb in...

    Haih.. hopeless la..

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  3. that is what i feel...sis...
    i always doubt to myself...what am i good in?i seem...AVERAGE...
    i dun want to be like tat...but...i din realize until recently i experience...,
    ...

    now i even more understand to myself...because, my subconscious always talk to myself..."never mind,take it easy",when i am feeling stress...

    SEE!if you think yourself as average...you forever be average...

    so...i seem to be the pity one compare to you...

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