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This song was recorded during the time when I sudden disappear from him..

This is how we begin...

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All it started from friendster, piano to be exactly...
He found me first because of the 'piano' word in the Interest section, i suppose.. :)

I remember that time i was having some hard time with my grade 8 and at the same time doing my CAT advance level... His present is like the angel from heaven, he thought me alot about music, introduce me to the another world of language.... Music itself speak the words that it doesn't need any lyrics.. Just like this song...

We didn't expect we will be stay in touch for long, as i thought after giving me some tips of how to play... and that's it... end of story....

But no... Surprisingly we found out we have alot of similarities, and here we start to text each other day and night... It becomes like a habit? Or should i say feel something missing if we dun text...

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That's one day, alot of reasons that accumulated... conflict in me and family.. due to our distance, race difference, afraid of nonacceptance from family, friends, languages...... There's this day, we got quarrel... I cant really remember what's it about... but it really hurts, feel unsecured..... And i was really really sad..... and the sad turns to anger....... and i make a silly decision...... i changed my number..... hope to start all over again..... back to the life when i no need phone with me all the time..... back to the life that i once were......

I was wrong.... It's so hard than i expected..... I thought after few days i will feel better..... but it's worst that i can imagine...... Looking at the phone that i know there will be no message coming in and still hope it will..... and at the same time i have to stay strong because that was my decision.... and parents were happy about it......... Each night sleep with tears.... Alot of memories keep on floating into my mind whenever i close my eyes......

He never give up..... he still email me.... tell me to practice my piano as my exam were near that time...... but i didn't reply any of them....... I feel so struggle..... hate myself..... but i cant show the weak side of me......

That one to two weeks was like years...... days seem hard to pass..... the feeling of waiting....is just... like dying..... i cant play... whenever i sat on piano, it reminds me of him..... everywhere i went, there will be something connected to him......

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I gave up in the end...... I decided to give a miss called..... a chance.... for him... and for myself.... And.. :') ....



Just like this song.... He recorded it during that hard time.... It's a perfect piece.... the way he brings out the feeling of the whole song.... Each note hammer deeply straight into my heart.....

Frédéric Chopin - Nocturne in A flat major, opus 32 no.2

Listen it... the happiness at the beginning..... full of anticipation.... the joy we had together.... :')
and comes to the middle.... the struggling part.... heart tearing..... questioning why this happen.... should i go back... or should i look forward.....

And slowly it back to the joy... :')